| i noe i JUST made this site but its not workin out.........and wen i cme to a major chnge or decision in my life i like to shed everything from my past.....and thas whut i'm doin........this is one of the BEST epiphanies i've EVER had!! so check out the new site www.xanga.com/perfect_lil_imperfections subscribe to me there so i can subscribe to yall......lol...o well ttyl love you all-celia |
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| ::edit:: hope u like the new look.....yea so i decided to put a poem on here......its not nethng great but its ok i guess so here it is:
"refuse to lose"
the idea of a lurking day waiting to be discovered
Terrifying
the thos of yet another painful hour arising
Frightening
the knowledge of the pain rising in the night
Undeniable
where is the want to live that once paraded my dreams?
where is the driving wonder instead of the dulling fear?
where is the hunger for a fight against pain?
the increasing agony has fought away my eagerness to live
the knife digs deeper
and i start to fight
this is one battle i refuse to lose
bet u cant guess what it's about..............:::hint::: think OUTSIDE the box lol |
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| well lets see...yesterday i went canoeing (sp??) with my bro and mom it was FUN! thn we went to opry mills to eat and listen to music 'cept the ady wasnt performing till 8 and we thot it was at 6 so we left. today....hmm bout to go to hechts cos on friday i got this SUPER cute swim suit BUT they didnt hvae my size for the bottoms so we got a diff bottom that matches but we wanna check and see if we can find the other bottom somewhere else.....iight well i've decided ALIEVE (sp???) is a MIRACLE worker. it helps my knee like SUPER wenever it wears off i cant walk..blah. so i took it this morn but mom wants me to not take ne cos i go to the doc tomorrow and we want my knee to hurt so we can be more accurate in answers. i'm gonna let them noe i'm upset with them and everything else this time. well i've decided that every time i update i'm gonna put lyrics on here from a song i like. o and i mite chnge my layout today...idk.
todays song is: "peace of mind" by Boston
Now if you’re feelin’ kinda low ’bout the dues you’ve been paying
Future’s coming much too slow
And you wanna run but somehow you just keep on stayin’
Can’t decide on which way to go
Yeah, yeah, yeah
I understand about indecision
But I don’t care if I get behind
People livin’ in competition
All I want is to have my peace of mind.
Now you’re climbin’ to the top of the company ladder
Hope it doesn’t take too long
Can’tcha you see there’ll come a day when it won’t matter
Come a day when you’ll be gone
I understand about indecision
But I don’t care if I get behind
People li vin’ in competition
All I want is to have my peace of mind.
Take a look ahead, take a look ahead, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah...
Now everybody’s got advice they just keep on givin’
Doesn’t mean too much to me
Lot’s of people out to make-believe they’re livin’
Can’t decide who they should be.
I understand about indecision
But I don’t care if I get behind
People li vin’ in competition
All I want is to have my peace of mind.
Take a look ahead, take a look ahead. look ahead.
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| stumbling anlong
right on the edge of the painted white line
though on the edge moving slowly
carefully
sure not to step over the guide
daring
but not to too daring
pulling forward
pseudo-confidence challenging those on the other side
willing to live on edge
but not to live there
along the line
danger in the hair
safety in the blood
daring
but not daring enough
i'm bak on cruches cos my knee has gotten so bad......go to doc monday......o well....bout to go shopping once reice leaves. o well.....my dad is in san diego for my cuz's wedding...he'l be bak tuesday. sewing class is over...my skirt is REALLY cute. not to be mean but hope reice leaves soon so i can go shoppin....well leave comments on the poetry love you all-celia |
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| THIS SUCKS ASS!!!!!!! i wake up this morning and what do ya noe? my dumbass knee is WORSE i can barely walk....i walk down the hall and havta stop and rest my knee plus i can't bend it very far bak and thn it hurts even worse to straighten it. so OF COURSE my mom starts her whole research thing and finds this weird thing...it has to do wth the whole scar tissue crap PLUS de-generation of my cartilage because of it! and the only solutions are this weird thing which normally causes tissue damage, the kinda surgery i ALREADY had, or open surgery....like with a knife to remove the scar tissue and then smoothing out the whole knee instead of just the cartilege. but thas my mom's diagnoses and it sounds EXACTLY what i have BUT its VERY rare and normally happens after ACL surgery....which i havnt had. but the doc hasn even suggested thas whut it is.....so we're gonna try to suggest it and see what they say.....idk i'm sposed to go to te doc monday and see a diff surgeon in elrods office for "fresh eyes" but my mom is trying to get it today since i'm in so much pain. but that means i'd prob miss my sewing class :/ o well gtg ttyl love you all-celia |
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